It mostly brought back the memory of the weirdest feeling that I have ever felt. After having Miss F at 1:32 in the morning, it took hours for the hubby, baby and I to finally get a bit of sleep for the first time. I had probably only caught twenty minutes of sleep or so before waking up. Upon waking up I remember that ``where the heck am I feeling``, the kind you get when you go on vacation and wake up the first day confused for all of 2.5 seconds until you realize where you are at. Anyway, I remember rubbing my eyes and looking around and realizing that I was in the hospital. I remember looking over at the little see through bassinet that held my precious baby girl who was sound asleep. That was when I had it, the weirdest feeling ever.
The last time I had fallen asleep, I had woken up to just my husband. This time, I was waking up to a tiny person who depended on me for everything. I take myself to the bathroom when I need to go, I make my food when I am hungry. I go to sleep when I am tired. It took a minute to sink in and fully understand that this tiny little person needed me to help her do all these things. I had prepared myself for this thought long before I gave birth, but actually BEING in that situation and realizing how fully real it is. Well...that is scary as hell.
It was a weird feeling. Don`t get me wrong I was up for the challenge, and thrilled to be her mom. Still, it was an odd feeling. I did what all mommy`s do...I took a deep breath, looked around and threw myself into the World of Mommy. What an awesome word that is!
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